vote

November 6, 2012 by

everyone needs to vote today. and vote for who you think is better for the country, for the future. people always claim that they support whoever but it doesn’t matter if you don’t actually go vote. everyone has a voice but you have to use it in order to be heard. and that means that it’s necessary to vote. i have already sent in my absentee ballot and it was counted. i voted. i want my voice to matter. i hope everyone else does to. i don’t want to go backwards, i want to move forward.

#vote2012 #voteobama

slow dancing in a burning room

October 7, 2012 by

I have no interest in con…

September 25, 2012 by

I have no interest in contributing to that, especially with my art. It’s the one thing that I know will outlive me and outlive my feelings. It will outlive my depressive seasons.”

frank ocean

“Sometimes a fresh start…

September 10, 2012 by

“Sometimes a fresh start is exactly what we need…but people often tell me how they are going to move away to some new magical city and experience and see all of these beautiful things. They go on and on about how they are going to be free and in a place where they can be happy… Well, the truth is that we cannot escape ourselves, and happiness comes from within, and freedom is in the space of your own mind, and beauty is only a perspective that you create. Wherever you are, you must nourish your own happiness, you must journey in your own mind to be free, and you must bring the perspective that finds the beauty in the place that it is. One would only be naive to think that a place, or anything but themself, would be primarily responsible for these things.”

-Rex X “I’m moving away”

Basically, we are all res…

September 9, 2012 by

Basically, we are all responsible for the preservation of our personal joy; but happiness is different. Joy is not circumstantial, happiness is. You can be depressed and still have joy. You can be suicidal and still have joy. We all stop thinking and we all stop talking and we all stop sharing and we all stop creating, because by doing any ofthese things we quickly find out just how unhappy we are. But that’s okay. That’s normal. Don’t let the fear of unhappiness cripple your pursuit of finding what it is you believe. Since joy is found in belief, we all have to push through unhappiness to find joy.

twenty one pilots

“I have done a lot of wo…

September 9, 2012 by

“I have done a lot of work which presents a visual disorder that is actually the representation of a mental order. It’s just a question of knowing the rules of the game. Someone who doesn’t know them will never see the order that reigns in things. It’s like looking at a starry sky. Someone who does not know the order of the stars will see only confusion, whereas an astronomer will have a very clear vision of things.”

alighiero boetti

wearing thin

February 22, 2012 by

i’m really stressed with everything that’s been happening. from school projects to internships to apartment hunting and job searching and dealing with a roommate that’s starting to become annoying…everything’s just making my heart sink. i just miss home so much and it’s starting to get to me. i can feel it. i can feel myself wanting to break down, wanting to know how to fix myself. i have to get back up before i fall into this spiral but it’s just honestly frustrating me how everything’s hitting me at once. i shouldn’t complain, i know. i should just work things out and look up and hope for things to fall into place. or at least to know that they’ll get better. but it’s still of my utmost concern. why don’t i know how?

only so much

December 8, 2011 by

i don’t know why but recently i’ve been feeling over emotional…i’ve mentioned this in the last post but i can feel myself started to break down…i don’t know if it’s finals and all the stress or the maine or maybe i’m just missing home..

it’s these days that i just kind of wonder if i’m able to handle it. i’ve always been so independent my entire life, it just is normalcy to do things the way i do. but i don’t know, so many things have caused me to just feel things a lot stronger.

maybe it’s pioneer. maybe it’s the idea that the simplest things in the world can have the largest impact. maybe it’s the fact that i’ve loved this band for almost four years now and that i feel like i’ve grown up with them. maybe it’s how every song is so raw that it makes me want to cry. maybe it’s just knowing that when writing this music, they had to have come from some dark or light place. maybe it’s knowing that they did this on their own and it’s inspiring. maybe it’s the way they were stripped down to their core just with their lyrics, voice and instruments. maybe i’m just going crazy. 

maybe i’m looking to feel something…along the lines of love. i have the most love in the world i would say. my family and my friends. even my teachers. i don’t know if it’s just the fact that it’s been so long since i’ve been home, i’m just waiting to be embraced by people i’ve known my entire life. maybe it’s just me wanting to achieve everything at once.

i know that’s wrong to do. i know that i need to slow things down and prioritize, something that i’ve done all along while being here. it’s knowing that i have a million things to do, not enough minutes and hours in the day, and just wanting to cherish each moment i have.

that’s why i’m longing for home. longing for break. just wanting to be surrounded by people that i haven’t seen in a while. i miss these faces. those hugs. those smiles. the comforting words. the food. the laughter. the conversations. just everything.

and then it’s me knowing that i’m not a superhero. i’m not invincible. i can only accomplish one thing at a time. there is a limit to every human that exists.

i’m going to be okay. i can feel it in my bones. although i’m working myself probably too hard, i need to take a breather. it’s time to just let it out.

Is this a waste of all my precious time
And could this chance that I take lead me to losing my mind
As I step to the edge, I saw the water below
Then I said to myself, “Sometimes you’ve gotta let go”

All I know is
All I know is
All I know is I’m still waiting for my sun to shine

Oh I see our clouds when I look around
Rain falls from my mouth as it hits the ground
Lead me to the light
‘Cause I’m still waiting
I’m waiting for my sun to shine

What does it take to be a liar
And all the chances we take
What we’re measured by
As I sat on my couch
I wondered why
It’s such a beautiful day
I’m still sitting inside-side-side
All I know is
All I know is
All I know is I’m still waiting for my sun to shine.

I was dancing with the devil
I was singing dirty songs
Pulling whiskey from the bottle
‘Till the early break of dawn

Oh my gorgeous Arizona
Here’s to gettin’ caught with you
I was runnin’ with the wolves
I was howlin’ at the moon

I felt down and torn apart
With no cash left in my pockets
Just a shitty fortune card
It read “Strength will find you sooner
Then you ever thought it would”

Then the pain it turned to anger
Moved to joy, so now I’m good
And I’m one pack of smokes from broke
I can tell I will make it alone

So I’ll keep on fighting
Yeah, I’ll keep on fighting
In the end, when you sink, we float

When you’re one pack of smokes from broke
When you’re one pack of smokes from broke
When you’re one pack of smokes from broke
When you’re one pack of smokes from broke
I’m just one pack of smokes from broke
Yes I’m one pack of smokes from broke

I’m just one pack of smokes from broke
I’m just one pack of smokes from broke
I’m just one pack of smokes from broke
One pack of smokes from broke
One pack of smokes from broke
I’m just one pack of smokes from broke

I’m just one pack of smokes from broke

endlessly

November 30, 2011 by

it’s almost the end of the year…or at least this semester..the last time i posted was in april.

i went to a concert today. and i will elaborate later on…but i found that…i’ve become more and more emotional going to these events. or maybe life in general, i’ve become this person who feels a lot stronger and not at the same time. i’m still the happy me that i’ve always been…and i know that i’m always going to be this way but somehow i just have this in me. i don’t know…i’m just really tired today so i must be rambling.

i know i’ve always been an independent person but every single time i listen to a love song…i just want to fall in love. i want to know what it means.

There’s a shop down the street,
where they sell plastic rings,
for a quarter a piece, I swear it.
Yeah, I know that it’s cheap,
not like gold in your dreams,
but I hope that you’ll still wear it.

Yeah, the ink may stain my skin,
and my jeans may all be ripped.
I’m not perfect, but I swear,
I’m perfect for you.

..and there’s no guarantee,
that this will be easy.
It’s not a miracle ya need, believe me.
Yeah, I’m no angel, I’m just me,
but I will love you endlessly.
Wings aren’t what you need, you need me.

There’s a house on the hill,
with a view of the town,
and I know how you adore it.
So I’ll work everyday,
through the sun, and the rain,
until I can afford it.

Yeah, your friends may think I’m crazy,
cause they can only see,
I’m not perfect, but I swear, I’m perfect for you.

..and there’s no guarantee,
that this will be easy.
It’s not a miracle ya need, believe me.
Yeah, I’m no angel, I’m just me,
but I will love you endlessly.
Wings aren’t what you need, you need me.

(You need me, girl you  know you need me,
you need me, girl you know you need me)

Ink may stain my skin,
and my jeans may all be ripped.
I’m not perfect, but I swear,
I’m perfect for you.

..and there’s no guarantee,
that this will be easy. (This will be easy)
It’s not a miracle ya need, believe me. (Won’t you believe me?)
Yeah, I’m no angel, I’m just me,
but I will love you endlessly.
Wings aren’t what you need, you need me. (You know you need me)

(I know you need me)
You need me,
(I know you need me)
You need me,
(I know you need me)

There’s a shop down the street,
where they sell plastic rings,
for a quarter a piece, I swear it.
Yeah, I know that it’s cheap,
not like gold in your dreams,
but I hope that you’ll still wear it.

-the cab

 

welcome

April 14, 2011 by

wow i haven’t posted on this in forever….but i decided that at least for this week i should post about my life and whereabouts. haha. well i am in savannah now and after a long day of flights……i’m in a hotel room. and it feels good, better than sitting on my butt and walking to gates. there’s not much that happened. i did stats homework on the place… FUN! not. and then i read deadline, which i really like ;D he’s such a witty guy it’s absolutely awesome to read. i listened to music a lot and i wanted to watch movies on hbo but it costed too much money….but there was tangled and hp and like so muchhh. i had seattle’s best coffee thingy and it was creme caramel javakool haha 😀 i had pretzels and twizzlers, which was delicious. not too eventful but i do miss home… a bit. i miss the people but i’m sure they’re having fun too :] hahah well this is me signing off because its about 1:30 in georgia lol.