Archive for August, 2010

grow one

August 31, 2010

is all i have to say

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Day 1 – 7 things that cross your mind a lot

August 30, 2010
  1. friends
  2. family
  3. bands
  4. art portfolio/college apps
  5. concerts
  6. scheduling
  7. the future

is it worth

August 30, 2010

any of my time. probably not. so at this rate, where do we go?? because seriously it’s ridiculous and pointlesssssss

first day of school

August 23, 2010

not too shabby. it’s interesting how my plan of four classes turns into five just like that. haha well i’m sure i’m going to have a good year this year. i’m going to make it a good year for sure at least. i should probably go finish typing my letter for contemp lit. i like my classes and teachers for the most part though. i think i’m gonna be fine. i think we all are. but i had a really bad stomachache today. like painful…. which is fail but i’m pretty sure it’s cuz i’m not used to coffee with milk and cream and stuff cuz i usually drink it black with some sugar so…..i shall blame it on that.

my theme song for the rest of the week is

city is ours by big time rush

The City is Ouuuur Ouuuur Ouuuurs
The City is Ouuuur Ouuuur Ouuuurs

Rolling past graffiti walls
Billboards lighting up the block
Everyone of us on a mission (oh yeah)

Gotta a whole crew by my side
Cars beep beep when they pass us by
Be ready to get down in business (mmm hmmm)

We pull up
Open the door
All the girls scream
“There they are”

It’s packed from wall to wall and
Everybody is calling

Here we come
It’s almost time
Feel the rush
Now, hit the lights

We’re gonna get it all started

Because the night is young
The light is out the door
Today was crazy but
Tonight the city’s ours

Live it up
Until the morning comes
Today was crazy but tonight

The City is Ouuuur Ouuuur Ouuuurs
The City is Ouuuur Ouuuur Ouuuurs

My, my look how we roll
Was it only a month ago
Everybody said we were dreaming (oh ooooh)

Now we’re here like “Yeah, we told you”.
Still far but were that much closer
And there ain’t no way that we’re leaving (oh noooo)

We pull up
Open the door
All the girls scream
“There they are”

It’s packed from wall to wall and
Everybody is calling

Here we come
It’s almost time
Feel the rush
Now, hit the lights

We’re gonna get it all started (get it started)

Because the night is young
The light is out the door
Today was crazy but
Tonight the city’s ours

Live it up
Until the morning comes
Today was crazy but tonight

The City is Ouuuur Ouuuur Ouuuurs
The City is Ouuuur Ouuuur Ouuuurs

We gotta believe
It’s destiny calling
So night after night
We’ll rock the whole place out

As hard as it seems
I know if you want it
Then it’s gonna happen somehow (whoa)

Because the night is young
The light is out the door
Today was crazy but
Tonight the city’s ours

Live it up
Until the morning comes
Today was crazy but tonight

Because the night is young
The light is out the door
Today was crazy but
Tonight the city’s ours

Live it up
Until the morning comes
Today was crazy but tonight

The City is Ouuuur Ouuuur Ouuuurs
The City is Ouuuur Ouuuur Ouuuurs
The City is Ouuuur Ouuuur Ouuuurs
The City is Ouuuur Ouuuur Ouuuurs
The City is Ours

the college process

August 19, 2010

isn’t terrible really. it’s the chatter that is involved around it. when you hear it from parents and guidance counselors and just adults in general it gets really tiring. it becomes so excessive that i don’t wan to deal with it. but in reality, i’m excited. frightend, hell yes. but i am looking forward to it. i hope i find myself during this process. i hope i get to learn who i really am. but all the while i’m so upset and tiring of listening to others. what’s even more painful is to know that because it doesn’t seem like i hear anything or anyone else, assumptions are made. they just automatically assume i don’t care and use the excuse for not going to school at all. but that’s not it. i want to go to college. i just want to do things my way. even if it means dipping my feet very slowly. if i’m ever going to be independent i just need to try new stuff on my own. obviously i need the advice and help from others, from loved ones. but at the same times i know you’re getting tired of nagging at me. i know you’re starting to wonder if i’m worth the time. i know it isn’t your job to keep tabs on me. i know that it’s hard to be positive about me getting into college when my progress is so slow. i know all that and more. but i am. i’ll show you in the end.

i printed out the common app today. it’s my practice copy. i was searching up tons of other schools too again. i think i want to just go to a school with lots of options mainly with art, business, and communications. that would be nice. needs to be near the beach and near the city at the same time and near concerts. but really it’s just my double c theory. concert and college. i think i’m going to apply to uc davis, ucla, ucsb and uci for the uc’s. the art schools include fidm, parsons, lim, and scad. so thats eight. the rest will be some privates i think or just states. i know i’ll apply to sf state and sj state for sure…..soooo u of sd and u of sf might be on the list too. im thinking about concordia, fordham, and chapman. but i know it’s too many. so i definitely have to shorten on some of them or else i’m gonna be so stressed this end of the year.

i think i’m getting things done. well sorta because i shouldn’t be belogging right now. i actually should be drawing/sketching haha.

tired but eventful

August 16, 2010

today was super fun. i actually really like the freshman this year. hopefully they stay cool xD but it definitely wore me out. i took a nap after i got home. FREAKING THREE HOURS. and i drew my mom. i have so much stuff left to do in these few six days we have left. i’m kind of freaking out right now. and my room it looks like a disaster. it seriously feels like someone just vomitted all over my room cuz it’s such a big mess. theres pencils, clothes, college stuff, art pieces, magazines, cds and papers hanging all over my room….and the garage :[ i have to clean up tomorrow. it seems like tuesdays will always be the busiest day for me. i have art class and volunteer. and with this new schedule i have for school….just one word. ARGHHHHHHHHHHH. i cant believe i still have that hole. honestly i knew my chances were slim but it’s not rocket science. what’s one more kid to a contemp lit class during fourth period. do i really need to stay AFTER LUNCH. i feel like a beezy cuz i didnt get what i wanted and now im just acting like a selfish snob. but…..senior year…..almost slightly sorta massively affected…….by this unneeded unwanted hole….now a current resident in my schedule. this year better be better then.

i’m tired but i dont want to sleep yet. i’m just gonna think. so much to do, so little time. i’ve definitely been in and out here and there scattered. so i shall leave now with this mess in my head. and my stomach’s growling. oh well. IT’s DEFINITELY NOT GETTING ANY FOOD TONIGHT xD

August 8, 2010

today. it’s been two years. i guess it’s kind of already been stored deep within my heart. i hope he’s doing well. i miss you and i love you.

August 5, 2010

omigosh i better have a fixed schedule or else my senior year is gonna be fucking RUINEDDDDD